Monday, October 6, 2014


Doctor Oncologist introduced me to the "transporter room" as I liked to name or call it. It looked to me like a chamber out of a star trek transporter room. 

I would disrobe and replace my clothes with a gown, opened ended at the back. Then, upon entering the room the carbonized table would be located just at the edge of the chamber. The computer would synchronize my programed treatments.  The lights would be blinking as I took my place upon the carbonized table. The technicians would mechanically roll me into the chamber.  I was at that point looking upward at the cylindrical rolling wheel with the proton snoot directed at my torso. At that point I experienced the table being centered precisely again and again until I was perfectly in place and ready for treatment.  

In the chamber there was a blue high definition screen to my left as I entered. The high definition screen would be activated during my treatment. There was a control room hidden from my view where a technician would facilitate the computerized treatment plan formalized previously by the myriad of technicians and I believe specialized Doctors of Proton Therapy, physics, and oncology. 

As I took my place upon the table I would be blocked into a fixed position so as to prevent any sudden movement. Then BOB would be placed in my rectum.  BOB stands for the brotherhood of the bottle. It refers to others who have undergone proton therapy for prostate cancer. Water is placed into the bottle to raise the prostate tissue so the proton beam would derive greater accuracy.  I had an implant of a global positioning marker prior to treatment. The marker was implanted by the prostate to offer greater accuracy upon the proton pencil beam treatment. The proton beam was designed to stop at the prostate tissue and only in a peripheral way touch upon surrounding tissues. 

The bottle took some getting use too. The proton procedure was quite challenging for me since I had difficulty holding water.  I had already be diagnosed with an enlarged prostate which made it quite difficult to hold water. It resulted in frequency of urination. I had to drink water as well prior to entering the chamber. In addition, I had to hold the water in my body until the end of the twenty to sixty minutes for the duration of the two treatments of therapy.  The duration of twenty to sixty minutes for two treatments varied because the technician in the control room was responsible for capturing the proton beam and then administering its healing energy. The snoot would shoot me with the proton beam from below the table and then the cylinder would turn counter clockwise and the snoot would shoot me from above.  The reason for this treatment plan was because I had an artificial replaced left hip.  

Large amounts of water are necessary because of the proton radiation. The water reduces the side effects of fatigue and constipation. The urge to urinate increased and decreased during the treatment process. The holding of the water required great discipline which was facilitated by my expertise of mind over matter control.  I accomplished this mind over matter (need to release urine) for forty sessions and eighty treatments in a period of two months. It is here where the practices in my three books became necessary and proved useful.  I was always able to handle the intensity of emotion because of the practices in my books. In addition I requested that Antonio Vivaldi's Four Seasons be played and piped into the chamber as well.  The sound of the four seasons helped me through the treatments. More later.

Joel V.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

The Cancer Speaks

The cancer is a parasite.  It enjoys being in its host, me.  Since, I practice emotional methodologies like peer counseling, animated laughter with feelings, and primal sound I am in touch with what is occurring in my body. I can feel the parasites presence.  It is an entity of it for it self. It has a self.  It feels and has the ability to communicate with me.  It enjoys growing an eating up its host, me. I can only find ways to end its growth and dissipate its presence within me. 

The power of the proton beam overwhelmed its presence in me.  Just after six treatments, but three sessions of forty planned the tumor begin to speak very loudly to me saying "I do not like this", "Take it away", This is not fun", "Stop It", You are hurting me", "I cannot run away from this", "Please take it away because you are killing me", "Help", I am dying".  

As it was growing in my body.  It said these things, "I am enjoying it here", "I want to keep growing",  I enjoy giving my host pain", "This is fun", "I can absorb more cells and just keep multiplying" 
However, it sure was not fun for me, it was very painful.  More Later.

Joel V.

Monday, September 29, 2014

                                         THE IDES OF MARCH

It is the month of March and the cancerous pain has begun to take charge.  I can feel it growing within the prostate.  It is enjoying the growth within me.  I can actually feel its joy at its presence.  However, I am not joyful.  It is truly a horrible feeling sensing an alien cell growth within my body.  It seems to be feeding on healthy cells and nourishing itself on their well-being. 

I turn to alternatives, hemp oil, cannabis, wormwood, high concentrations of turmeric, blueberries, baking soda, green smoothies with bananas, kale, spinach, pears, flaxseed, apple, apple seeds B17, more blueberries, blackberries, peaches, figs,  peer counseling, prays, primal sound, animated laughter with feelings.  It all helps but I realize not enough.  The emotional methods like "Animated Laughter with Feelings", Peer Counseling, Primal Sound,  spearhead by connection with the sensations within my body.  I am so glad I wrote my three books.  What a treasure. I am in touch with the physical sensation of the cancer growing within. 

Doctor Oncologist phones and suggests an implant, a global positioning marker to be placed by the prostate facilitating yet greater accuracy and narrowing of the high intensity white proton beam when I begin treatment.  I agree to the marker.  However, I need to extend my wait by two weeks.  The pain is increasing and I become anxious as to receiving my first treatments. 

I become nauseated by eggs, red meat, fried items, coffee, oranges, grapefruit, anything acidic or white. I decide to refrain from all the above. My diet becomes sardines, salmon, tofu, chicken, turkey, and steamed beets, carrots, kale or spinach.

The pain continues to increase and I just persevere and wait for my initiate visit to the Proton Caner Therapy Center.   I wait for the phone call regarding my initial visit.  More later.

Joel V.

Sunday, September 28, 2014


There are many blessings in the world.  February 4th 2014, I was phoned by my urologist who notified me that I presently had aggressive early stage prostate cancer.  

December 2013, I had taken an annual exam and was absolutely sure that I was cancer free.  There were no uncommon symptoms. However, the urologist had become excited immediately after the exam.  The urologist felt a bump. He excitedly advised a biopsy.  I decided upon a second opinion and the second urologist recommended a biopsy as well.  At that point, my denial ended.

Fortunately, I have my methods in my three books to support the processing of my feelings reflective of my emotions.  Truly, I am blessed.  My methods facilitated my reflection, responses, reactions, and most of all facilitated my proactive research and above all my actions.

The urologist referred me to one Doctor who did intensive radiation known as IMRT and yet another Doctor who did removal of prostates.  I decided against both options.

My research concluded that "Proton" therapy would be my best option.  There is fifteen proton therapy centers in the USA at present.  In the city where I reside unknown to me, a center was being constructed for the past three years and it was nearing completion.  The initial urologist (though he was from the same medical group) did not inform me of the new Proton Center.

The blessing was the Proton Therapy Center opened on February 12th and my first appointment with the oncologist was on February 11th. Otherwise, I would have had to travel a hundred miles to the next closest center.

This is a series of blogs regarding my experience with aggressive early intermediate stage prostate cancer and my subsequent actions to resolve the issue.  More later.

Joel V.

Friday, August 15, 2014

August 15th 2014

      Process, Process, Process, Process, Process, and Process

Thirty-Nine Thousand Americans took their lives by suicide within one year's time. This post is one of encouragement to those of you who are in emotional/physical pain.  I want to encourage you to learn the methods that I wrote about in my books, "I Dare to Heal with Compassionate Love",  "I Dare to Heal with Spiritual Power" and my last book "I Dare to Heal with Laughter".  

If and When the methods are learned and practiced then suicide is just not possible. Yes, it takes discipline to develop a pattern of consistency, support, patience, perseverance, and persistency.  If one can breath then the potential to enjoy life is present.

There are many indications that suicide has many components.   I believe a major component of suicide are unfulfilled past needs chronic and frozen. The needs perpetuate depression and anxiety. The feelings need to be processed, connected with, and discharged with a dynamic process. Whatever process is chosen is of no matter. What is necessary is daily practice and positive results.  

I practice "Animated Laughter with Feelings" everyday.  For me, it is dynamic, effective, efficient, and always results in my feeling better, upbeat, and healthier.  Of course, I have other practices as well that I describe in my books.

Recently, I survived aggressive, intermediate, early stage cancer.  I used the practices in my books to process feelings, fear mainly, to support me through forty sessions and eighty treatments of Proton Therapy in two months.  The symptoms returned after one month time.  I continued to practice the methods in my books.  The researched showed that a mushroom could resolve the issue.  I have been on the Organic Coriolus Gold (Turkey Tail) for two weeks and my symptoms have dissipated. 

Once again, if you are in physical or emotional pain open up to possibilities by finding practices that resonate and work for you.  Life is worth it!  In fact, I am beginning to believe in eternal mortality after all I have survived severe asthma, knee joint and hip replacement, two left knee anthroscopic surgeries, degenerative discs in my lumbar and sacral, and now aggressive cancer.

Joel V.

Friday, August 8, 2014

                                                     Book Signing of "I Dare to Heal" Books

I invite you to my book signing of the "I Dare to Heal" books on Sunday, August 10th at the Universal Spirit Center located at 3858 Front Street San Diego, CA. 92108 in the Social Hall at 11:00 a.m. until 11:45 and once again at 12:30 until 1:15p.m.  The service will be held at 10:00a.m. and once again at 11:30 a.m. in the main hall.  The Universal Spirit Center is located in the Masonic Temple across from Florence Elementary School.  Please come and share in the Book Signing Event. "I Dare to Heal with Laughter" took eight years to write and is available on E-Kindle and itunesbookstore, E-Pub as well. The additional web page is on


Joel Vorensky

Saturday, July 12, 2014

"I Dare to Heal with Laughter" E-book

July 12th, 2014

Hi Everyone

Thank you for accessing my blog.  My new book, "I Dare to Heal with Laughter" has a page in Facebook, laughter.  The book can be accessed and read on, E-Kindle or at iTunes bookstore,

Please E-mail me at with your comments.

Joel V.

Monday, March 10, 2014

March 10th

Hi Everyone

I invite you all to a presentation at 11:00 a.m. and an "Animated Laughter with Feelings" class at 1:30 p.m. at the First Spiritualist Church at 3777 42nd Street in San Diego, CA 92105 on Sunday March 23rd.  The topic of the presentation is healing from Cancer by using "I Dare to Heal with Laughter" book authored by myself.  In addition, I will discuss the practice of "Animated Laughter with Feelings" and its major benefits to participants.  Please join me at the First Spiritualist Church.

Joel                           First Spiritualist Church
                                 3777 42nd Street
                                 San Diego, CA 92105

                                 March 23rd, 2014
                                 Sunday  -   11:00 Presentation
                                 1:30 p.m. Class in the Social Hall
                                  Cost Non-Members $25.00
                                  Members $20.00
                                  Please bring a soft mat/blanket to the class.